“Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind”…
Always seemed like a terrible premise,
Until you.
I wish I could erase it
as much as I never
ever
ever
ever want to forget.
As soon as I decide my memory is wrong,
it wasn’t what I thought.
I’m only remembering positive things.
Selective memory….
I come across something proving I wasn’t.
It was real.
It is real.
It was possible for me.
Then…
regret.
Overthinking.
Dwelling in the past.
Praying for a redo.
Scaling all against it.
How can an experience fix you
Yet break you
all at the same time?
I wish I could hate you.
Instead I hate me.