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Fuck you, Oxytocin.

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Fuck you, Oxytocin.

I’ve come to agree

with all the cynics

love is just a fairytale

a myth made up for children

 

like God and Heaven

all that’s true

is lust and obsession

our need for need

 

Emotions are worthless tools

used to get what we want

not necessarily what we need

what we got in trade for instinct

 

Love is a fleeting feeling that

people gave a name to rationalize

the way they use their bodies

the way they use each other

 

Sex is an exchange of energy

sometimes even a manipulation

just to steal power

that won’t be given freely

 

You try and displace the feeling

know all the while it’s not real

But push the thought out

follow the chemical path of “emotion”

 

Back to damn emotions

their pseudo-erotic tendencies

the manipulations we use on ourselves

how we set our sadistic selves up for pain

 

Over and over patterns are repeated

even after you become conscious of them

you allow yourself to believe again…

GOD DAMN TV

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And so it begins, the end is near? 2012 and junk…

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So I was thinking about the hoopla surrounding 2012 and all the varying thoughts/theories on it. Is it the end? Is it a shift in consciousness? Zombie Apocalypse? Are the aliens coming? Did I really fail to get recruited by the Illuminati in time? Were the Mayans just bored and decided to stop? Are the Reptilians coming? Is the 12th planet coming into our scope? Phone home Nibiru? Is the rapture coming? Is it a metaphorical end? Is it when Walter comes to know Walternate? Is Alex Jones right? Is Tom Cruise right? Was Zecharia Sitchin right? Will the election trigger the end? Will there be mail service in the FEMA camps? Is the NWO using the 2012 hype as a mass distraction put their own evil agendas into action? I don’t know. AAAAAGGGGHHHHH these are the thoughts that consume my brain power when I am not in school with required reading! And you wonder why I frequently am an insomniac…..

Anyone who knows me knows I am a little bit of a conspiracy theorist and suspects I wear an aluminum foil hat (when anyone who knows anything knows that you have to use TIN foil, duh). What I do know is that the first time I heard anything about the 12-21-2012 date was when I was pregnant with my son, 15 years ago. My best friend and her husband, Brian, were living with us and we spoke about it at length several times. I am not sure where he had even heard of it but since he was originally from California, I probably just assumed that being as sophisticated and worldly as being Californian makes you that everyone there knew. Ha. How naive I was, in all of my pregnant 16-year-old glory…

I digress.

Regardless, December 21, 2012 seemed like a science fiction date then. “In the year 2012….” cue the action movie score…..Now it is here and I am not sure what to think. I have made preparations for at least 6 scenarios; another 3 I have decided require no action on my part. Given my geographic location, those scenarios pretty much guarantee my imminent death. I have made peace with that.

In the event that life doesn’t change, my 2nd anniversary goes on without a hitch and my student loans remain a blemish on my soul, I wish you a premature Happy Solstice!

What are your plans for 2012? Life as usual?